It probably isn't the best idea to sit at my desk and think of all the things I would rather be doing then working right now. It's probably even crazier to write about it while I’m supposed to be working. I've actually accomplished a lot today which I feel good about. But the more I sit at my desk everyday and look out my window (ok so I don't have an office, but I do have an amazing downtown view) I think about all the things I want to see and do.
I want to go to grad school, travel to at least one new place every month, learn to speak Arabic in the Middle East, visit Hawaii for more than one week (actually one week would be really nice right now), see my old college friends that I rarely get to see, and just have some new and different adventures. It is really easy to sit here and think of those things, especially when boredom takes hold. In a way, I think it is weird to always be thinking "what's next". I have a lot of friends who would never dream of moving away- their life is here so it wouldn't even occur to them to move. My life is here too, so why do I always have this need to go somewhere new? Moving away is actually really scary and isn't always as glamorous or adventurous as it seems.
So what I have realized is this: All the time I spend thinking about being in a different place is my way of hoping. Hoping that I will somehow be able to move forward with my life, even when one of the key people in my life will not be here. It will mean that the loss will not control my life, but instead my mom's constant love and encouragement will be there to move me forward, find my new adventure and help me figure out, "what's next".
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For all that dont know nancy has a beautiful view from her desk at the office & i dont think she'd have it any other way :)
I do think though that people resistant to change in their life "feel" like they have everything. Change and the want for it is a good thing. It is the mark of a human being who wants and understands the need to learn more. It is curiosity that makes us want change,for instance "who would i be if i lived in china???" Anyone who experiences change in their life understands how, whether good or bad it makes you feel and learn new things. Moving away is one of the greatest gifts a person can give themselves, it is a chance to reinvent oneself, learn different aspects of one's personality. It is my personal belief that a person not seeking change is in denial of all that surrounds them and the fact that there are potentials to be reached that are way beyond the realm of their imagination. Moving may not always be glamorous or adventurous but it is always an experience if you live through it.
To be corny, Life is a journey where we take things we have learned and move on to learn some more, as Nancy would say "whats next?"
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